Today's horrorscope:


You will increase your chances of success many times over today if you make an effort to get up and get out into the big wide world. You don't have to push yourself hard, you just have to put yourself in situations where Lady Luck is most likely to find you, and that certainly isn't at home staring at the same four walls.

Heh, busted.

Ive been out and about, but Ive spending days at a time inside. But, its not as if Ive not been getting nothing done, but ive definitely been taking it slooow. :)

Hey, i gave myself the time to do it. And its nice being able to relax.

A nice summer.

Still, I need to get out and about. Soon.

Tomorrow.

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This day may toss a few roadblocks in your direction, but they're false obstacles. Your old fears are at work here -- and they're trying every trick in the book to psyche you out and get you doubting yourself. But the good news is that all you have to do is remember that the past is the past, and the shape of your future is in your hands. Today is when the shaping can happen. You just need to let your bravery take charge. Don't let your fears get the better of you! -

Im tellin ya, one's resolve quavers when the pressures of bills loom and you start worrying about not having the cash.

With that, the plans to do what you want to do seem.. silly. And then you start thinking of the safety net. Its easy to become a coward then and start to look for the safe and reassuring, the tried and the true.

And then the fear kicks in. :)

whenever that kicks in, i think back to being homeless in Berkeley, and the realization that one could survive without money. That it is not the end of the world. In fact, I remember being.. well, disdainful, of people temporarily down on their luck, not being able to survive on 350 bux a week they got from unemployment.

350 bux a week, and there are no bills?? Please. He was doing well, all things considered.

Thats when I knew I had changed, and the fear was gone.

so, when my brain starts calculating and my breathing gets shorter, i stop and remind myself that dire straits is much much worse.

Thatt real security is the one you make for yourself.

And I have planned for this.

Then i clear my mind of the bad thoughts, and the fear is gone.
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In order to be successful, you have to listen to your dreams. Stop being a critic. Instead, be an artist, an innovator and a pioneer. Believe in yourself wholeheartedly, and your life will improve in astounding ways.

Go on faith, trust in myself.