Playing games at the Library

Playing games at the Library, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Quake II, in fact.

Offloading NYC cabs in Downtown LA

Offloading NYC cabs in Downtown LA, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

The Bradbury Building

The Bradbury Building, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Today's horrorscope sez:

Your ego got bruised recently, and it's perfectly healthy to spend some time nursing it. But you should try to start shifting back into normal life, today. Getting back to the action will help you snap out of any self-pity you've been feeling and remind you how capable you are. You have learned something from this humbling experience, so arm yourself with this knowledge, today. It will help you avoid making all of the same mistakes you made before.

Yeah.

Im getting back my arrogance.... :)

My camera

My camera plus Cin's Sigma 30mm f/1.4, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Washington Square wedding

Washington Square wedding, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

I no longer look like Mike Singletary apparently.

One of the oddest things that happen to me almost daily as I walk around LA is that people stare at me , or run up to me as if I were a celebrity but not sure which.

The ones that have spoken to me say I either look a lot like James Earl Jones (wtf, he's 40 years older than me) or Dennis Haysbert (the Dude is like 6' 5").

No one has said I look like Mike Singletary.

I guess LA isnt really a football town. :)

cockpit

cockpit, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Summer light, San Francisco

Summer light, San Francisco, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Gilroy Garlic Festival

Gilroy Garlic Festival, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Hollywood Blvd

Hollywood Blvd, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

40 clove chicken and garlic mashed potatoes

40 clove chicken and garlic mashed potatoes, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

@ The Stinking Rose, San Francisco

Words to live by

Words to live by, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

twilight

twilight, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

On the horizon

On the horizon, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Cruising by on Rodeo Drive

Cruising by on Rodeo Drive, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

"Drink Coca-Cola"

"Drink Coca-Cola", originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Fendi, Beverly Hills

Fendi, Beverly Hills, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

THAT'S what has been holding me back??

Me: Thats the kind of mindset and fear I want to walk past. Shyness is one thing, but its fear thats holding me back on all levels.
Which is ironic, because I'll stand up to almost anything.

LilBro: Yeh its fear that's holding us all back. U do stand up to anything. U even had me scared twice. I'd still knock u out though. :-)

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The epiphanies have been coming coming fast and furious.

This coming to LA has helped me with no end of insights and enlightenment. Among them has been the realization of why I havent been progressing with my dreams and plans.

Fear.

And not just the usual "Fear of Success" dealie, but the kind of self-talk that has held me back from realization, wealth and joy. FUCK!

I am truly pissed about it.

LA, and I will give it credit, has been mind expanding. Not without difficulty and and drama, but I'll give credit to the unreality that is SoCal. :) It has given me the space to open my mind and figure out what is going on.

I get it now. No Fear, No Excuses.