Saturday, April 13, 2002

Here is my life from the point of view of many folk:

"One lazy mofo who doesnt want to do a lick of work."
"His life is so sad, sometimes I really feel sorry for him and scared for him."
"His life is so depressing, sometimes - I feel weird talking to him. He's so out of touch."
"He needs to get a job."

And then, often from the same folk - the flip side of it:

"WOW. Where are you now??"
"Oh my god, I wish I could be doing what youre doing now."
"Looking at your pictures, I am SO jealous. I wish I could be doing/be where you are."

Or variations on these themes.

Disgust and jealousy. Aint that a bitch.

Most folk seem to be really missing the point..

I dont wish my life on anyone. Its hard and wearying.
But its the life path I picked. For good or bad.
For good AND bad, really.
I give thanks every day.

Sure, I wish I had more money to have more options to travel and be more comfortable, someone decent to share a life with and a cool truck/car to roll around in yadda yadda yadda.
Of course.
Im far from insane, regardless of appearances.

But, if I won money in the lottery - would I change my life substantially?

No. And if having money to waste would get me off track, then Id have to choose against it.

Oh, about missing the point...

Guys, Live the life path YOU choose. Live with the consequences. And if you dont like it.. Choose the life path youd like to live.
For good and bad.

Dont dump on me.

And if I cant talk and laugh and argue with you.. well, live your life elsewhere.

Stop stressing me out.
My canuck pal Poo.. who has known me and shown me love during very "good times" and "bad".. I like the way she defines work:

"Work should be fun with a purpose."


A great way to define the ideal life also.
Revisiting the scene of the crime.. or the Attack of the Mahi Mahi

This is the canal behind the office, and in the middle of the water was where all the ruckus started..

This is the shallows that the fish fled to to escape from the dolphinfish, coming around that curve...

and hiding underneath the mangrove almond tree

This is where the MahiMahi stopped

Here is the shallows where many of the small fish congregate

In fact, (if you stare closely) here are some silverfish, needlefish and bass congregating.

In taht group, I could see fresh scars on some of the fish escaping from predators.

Cut through the scales, skin, fat and flesh.

Not pretty.

But they escaped.

For now.

Normally tho, this little slice of manmade nature is this calm.

With the cycles of life and death underneath the placid surface...

Friday, April 12, 2002

I'd been driving people nuts yesterday cutting and pasting quotes from the Tick..

Actually, annoying people. Heheh. Much better.

JPennant: "Life is a big, wild, crazy tossed salad, but you don't eat it, no sir! You live it! Isn't it great?!"
JPennant: <-- TOTALLY amusing himself
yamB:groovy, man ;-)

JPennant: "I am mighty! I have a glow you cannot see. I have a heart as big as the moon! As warm as bathwater! We are superheroes, men, we don't have time to be charming! The boots of evil were made for walkin'! We're watching the big picture, friend! We know the score! We are a public service, not glamour boys! Not captains of industry! Keep your vulgar moneys! We are a justice sandwich. No toppings necessary. Living rooms of America, do you catch my drift? Do you dig?"

JPennant: <-- TOTALLY cracks up
yamB:i think you need some fresh Pacific ocean air to clear your mind ;-)
JPennant: heehee

JPennant: "I don't know the meaning of the word 'fear.'
Well, I mean, I know the meaning of it, I'm not *stooopid*..."

k a t e: what?
JPennant: heheh. A line from one of my favorite tv shows :-)
JPennant: A superhero's war cry...
JPennant: :-)
JPennant: *sigh*
k a t e: :-)

JPennant: ever watch the cartoon show The Tick?
tisha: nah
JPennant: been annoying people all day putting up quotes from the show
JPennant: heheheh
JPennant: "I don't know the meaning of the word 'surrender'!
I mean, I know it, I'm not dumb... just not in this context."

JPennant: "Yes, destiny has her hand on my back, and she's pushing!"
tisha: hahahah
tisha: that's funny as hell
JPennant: "The human mind is a dangerous plaything, boys. When it's used for evil, watch out! But when it's used for good, then things are much nicer."
tisha: :-)
tisha: -->wonders what drove joe pennant crazy today! :-P
JPennant: "Sanity! You're a madman!"
tisha: lolololol
JPennant: "And that's just it, Doc -- my mind has always been my Achilles' heel!"
tisha: joe pennant you are a madman! :-P
JPennant: keeps me sane :-D
tisha: :-) well good then
JPennant: "And isn't sanity really just a one-trick pony anyway? I mean all you get is one trick, rational thinking, but when you're good and crazy, oooh, oooh, oooh, the sky is the limit!"

JPennant: Heheh
tisha: damn. joe's a mental case now.. :-P
JPennant: Feels good :-)
JPennant: Who you callin crazy???? Oh. Thank you. :-)
tisha: lol
tisha: i'm so so glad to see you happy and smiling

Felt good. :-)

Thursday, April 11, 2002

Today's horrorscope:

Deep down, you realize that what you're going through is necessary to your long-term interests, but why does it have to be so tough?

The good news is that tomorrow's aspects will bring matters to a head and after that there won't be quite so many setbacks and misfortunes.
The even better news is that a week or so from now, there won't be any.

Jeez, I hope so.

Wednesday, April 10, 2002

With the annual removal of DayLight Savings Time, the mornings dont feel so weird down here.. where the sun is high in the sky at 6am.

Up north, it may be a different story.. but *cough* who cares? :-)

Random sunrises

I dunno what the deal is with Krispy Kremes. To me theyre just crappy, overly sweet doughnuts I avoided for years when I lived in Jacksonville.

Whats changed?

I actually preferred the donuts from WinDixie.

Surprised me too.

Yeah, and this is what it looks like pretty much every morn out my bedroom window...

Pretty much like this every morn.

So to break the monotony..

Heres a sunset:

You know youve lived in New York too long when:

A nosh attack hits.

You raid the kitchen for a midnight nosh..

You put together a nosh package of bagels, cream cheese and salty smoked salmon.

At midnight.

And you dont think thats weird.


Oh yeah, and you use the word 'nosh' in casual conversation...

Not something I'd share normally, but its still puzzling me...

There was someone I used to work with, and had a falling out with, with that popped up in a dream. In the dream I bumped into her as if we were in the same neighborhood.

I normally dont even dream of people that are in my life now, much less those who are out of it.

What is even odder, is that I wasnt the only one who did. So did a few other folk who knew her.

LORAIN: i know...Joe, when I dreamed of her believe ME, i said the same thing to myself
LORAIN: i said, "gee, i do not dream often, and I do not like dreaming, so when i have this dream, why the heck is SHE in it??"
JPennant: i KNOW


Whats even weirder, is that she now lives in San Francisco, where Im headed.

It shook me up so much, that I hadda call Kate long distance to tell her about it.

Heheh. Oops. Kate apparently doesnt wake up before 10am on weekends.... :-)


Tuesday, April 09, 2002

Oh, yeah..

Sometime this month.. mebbe its today... could be later.. DEFINITELY sometime in April...

Is this woman's birthday.

Go show her some love.

Monday, April 08, 2002

Several days ago...
JPennant: as ferris beuhler sez
JPennant: Life moves pretty fast...
tisha: lol yeah that i agree
JPennant: Look up that quote for me?
tisha: um.. in a bit?
JPennant: hehe. you type faster than I

LITERALLY three seconds later..

tisha: "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look
around once in awhile, you might miss it.".
JPennant: there ya go :-)
tisha: heheheh

Virga drops on my face as I watch the storm clouds get tossed by on the winds.
Making wind-like rain patterns on the water.
Suddenly, dark windy and chilly in the evenings.
The chimes outside my window are tinkling.
Getting emotional and stressed out. I blame it on the moon.
High tides the past week. Also blame it on the moon.
The Lil Red Truck was sold. Was fun while it lasted.

All stuff I was gonna talk about for today and yesterday, but it kinda got swept along by events.

Life has a way of doing that.

As the man said.. life moves pretty fast.
Apart from wanting enough money to be able to exercise my options, Im trying to quell the things that I want.

There is something that I truly miss.


Being itinerant means you have no clue if you'll be somewhere from one day to the next, and youre living from a backpack and a few suitcases - so it makes no sense to buy pots and pans and foodstuff that has to be made from scratch.

I miss cooking.

Im not fancy. A little herb and garlic flavored rice, put with some ground beef or fish.

Thats all I crave.

Would save money too.

Right now no one trusts what I say as to when I'll be where.

Cali folk have given up on me.
Lunch dates in NY have evaporated.

Lily in Jacksonville is trying to arrange a condo for me to stay in while Im in Jax.

And I'll be there...

Umm. Not sure. Either next week or next month.

Could be either or neither.


Sunday, April 07, 2002

Browsing on a Sunday morn...

Itinerant Images (used without permission) that I dig, and not just because these folk check out my pics occasionally.

Judy. Vancouver.

copyright Judy Tso

Damn, thas beautiful. Big Sky and mountains.

Vancouver is def on my West Coast itinerary.
Manuel. Seattle.

copyright Manuel Wanskasmith

Yeah, now I rilly wanna check out the Great Northwest. :-)