“Brother, if you don’t mind, there is a cloud of glass coming at us, grab my hand, lets get the hell out of here.”
Try to look in the heart, before you spit on it.
“Brother, if you don’t mind, there is a cloud of glass coming at us, grab my hand, lets get the hell out of here.”
Headed home from Brooklyn.
I slept good last night, staying overnight at Ma's instead of going straight home. She insisted when she saw I was dead on my feet, having not slept much since Thursday.
Im still having trouble offloading images off the camera, having to use the slow archaic way with cables - as my laptop and memory card readers are still locked up at the Cappy's house until she gets back from Pennsylvania. Oy.
That necessitated having to trek to Brooklyn, to cadge time on a borrowed computer, sit back and wait hours while the old program traverses directly through the camera, a process that takes several hours as it tries to read several hundred images at once.
The card reader does it in minutes.
Waste of @^$#% time.
And when (not if, when..) Windows ME crashes, I have to start the process all over again. Gah.
So, there are several days of images waiting to be offloaded, keeping me from being out and about.
Tools, I need tools.
Contrary to expectations, the roads and tunnels are usually crowded on weekends as New Yorkers take the chance to shop and take care of business... and relax.
This morning, the crowds on the streets and tunnels were light.
With the rerouted trains and whatnot, I think folk are avoiding un-necessary travel....
I can see New York returning to normalcy in small but heartwarming ways...
I heard a horn honk to move a straggler at a light along.
There was a "MOVE!!" directed at someone walking in a walkway.
Still, its not back to normal until I hear that change to a reassuring "Get outta the fuckin' road, you fuckin' retard!!". "Yeah? Fuckoff, shithead.."
Then I'll know we're back to our old selves...
Other random memories.....
Candid photo... gah
photo by Mike Mcnamara
People used to look at the picture I would take of the Katyn Forest Massacre memorial on the Jersey City waterfront, some saying it was far too ugly and disquieting.
But, for some reason, I was drawn to it over and over again, particularly as it was set against the scenic backdrop of the Towers.
I had to snap a photograph of it almost everytime I rushed to the PATH station there.
Im not sure, but I think it was meant to use the New York skyline as a counterpoint.
Now, there is no counterpoint..
except perhaps for this...
Its quite appropos now.
JPennant: <-- just wants to get back to worrying about women and money
JPennant: well, no - not really.. but ya know what I mean. :-)
Gabz: glad to see you up and about. *whew* you gave me a heart attack.
Gabz: mr. wanderlust...searching for the perfect picture.
Tito: I KNOW you. If you hadnt left the city, you woulda been down there..."
Because I have no internet access, difficulty getting to Brooklyn or ways to conveniently offload my pictures... It'll be awhile before I can post any pictures.
I came up behind them as the waited to cross the street to the Bayonne library. A group of 6 women and a man.
The women all had their heads covered in traditional muslim style.
You could tell the younger ones werent at all used to wearing the traditional head-covering regularly.
A determined point was being made.
They were defiant as they crossed road, smiling and laughing, ignoring the honking horns, the hard stares and the loud comments coming from the cars.
On one hand, you had to admire their pride, to show the world they had nothing to be ashamed of who they are.
On the other hand - I noted their avoidance of common sense over pride. Wandering around and trying to make a point in a conservative, blue collar town - where the sons and daughters automatically go into the armed services and many townfolk are related to people who died.
There have been reports of people celebrating - in the New York area - the fall of the towers. In the New York area.
And in this atmosphere - they were trying to make a point.
Didnt these folk realize it is beyond foolhardy to 'make a point' when people are looking for ANY indication of disrespect?
I made it a point to hang back from them.
I showed the sicilian ladies my pictures from yesterday.
It is a picture of the Katyn Forest memorial in Exchange Place, with the smoking hole right behind it.
In New York nowadays, that smoking hole is not so affectionately referred to as "The Pit".
"When you make this one into a poster, I want copies. Ok?"
When I can make it happen, and can afford to - I will.
I got up early today to go to the waterfont to catch the sunrise over New York.
Im still taking pictures.
Im about to head back out.
NJ Transit Light Rail, 34th Street Station Bayonne, NJ:
Voice of NJ Transit dispatcher.. ".. there is only
service from Newark to Journal Square and Grove
Street to 33rd Street in Manhattan. The PATH trains
will not be stopping at 9th, Christopher or 23rd
Voice on the radio: "What about to the World
"There is no World Trade Center."
Posted from the library....
Thanx to all who were worried and were checking up.
Im fine, guys. So is my family, and I believe so are most of my friends.
I had intended to stay in Manhattan @the Internet Cafe till morning break after being in Brooklyn all monday evening and night, but at Tuesday morn, 2:30 am - I decided to gather my things and get out of New York.
Funny thing, I had only intended to walk out for a coffee - but as I kept thinking about it, something in my mind said "Go Home". Firmly.
So I took the last bus out of New York at 4am. I fell asleep at 5am and woke up at 10:30 to the sound of helicopters hovering overhead..
At 11 am, the sicilian ladies told me the news when I went to get my coffee.
Life, for all of us - wont be the same again.
I kept thinking back to Tisha's musing posted at around midnight the day before as I looked at the plume of black smoke visible over the skyline.
Now we know why she cried.
Bayonne was locked down, and the Cappy was still in shock and tears at seeing first hand the second plane slam into the building and the buildings then collapsing.
She refused to let us turn the channel to the News and kept it on Nickolodeon for her kids sake.
They were blissfully unaware.
Everyone who had quit smoking started smoking again. They had all seen everything first hand from the Jersey shore. They didnt need to see the news.
She called her husband to come for her and the kids after she had rushed back to get them out of school, and we spent turns on the phone for hours trying to navigate him into town. Difficult with the highways and bridges shut down. He got in several hours later.
And then the helicopters were ordered out of the air, and the only things we heard all day were sirens, unmuffled F-16's flying combat air patrol overhead and med-evac copters flying in people to the hospitals.
The birds, normally cacophonic.. were eerily silent, the Cappy commented.
Only after her husband got in, and they were all tucked in to sleep did me and the Cappy go look at the carnage firsthand, and since the roads and bridges leading out of Bayonne and New Jersey were still locked down.. we went to the Jersey City terminal to see.
I dissuaded her from going by the local afterschool program to see if there were still kids waiting for their parents. She really didnt need to see that.
The thick black smoke rising all the way up to the stratosphere and the red glow of the fires were silhoutted against Lady Liberty. With Wall Street still in darkness, contrasting to the rest of Manhattan..
Unfortunately, it was heartbreakingly beautiful. With a big smoking hole in the middle of the skyline.
Heading back, we noted the commuter train parking lot, normally empty at night - was still full of cars.
I wondered if George and Ankita got in safely (he did) and if Kate and other folk I know who work in the Wall Street area got out.
I knew Ma was home ok, because her phone was busy all night.
I think Im fine.
I wish we all were.
More ear-bleeding guitar and drums madness...
I Got The Six
If I Could Flag Her Down
Youre not here to learn subjects.
Shit, youre gonna forget ninety percent of what you learn here.
What youre here for is to learn how to learn.
- College advisor
On the headphones.. cuz Im in the mood for nasty guitars and sharp drum work..
Sultans of Swing
Money for Nothing
- Dire Straits
Sharp Dressed Man
Gimme All Your Lovin'
- ZZ Top
..when people start dissing my beloved NYC without knowing WHAT THE FUCK they're talking about..
..anyone who's ever even set foot on any borough of New York would attest to the fact that it's dirty. From the streets to the subways to very air you breathe, it's a gross revelation of what happens when you get too many people in a very small area...
And unless somebody's willing to start the Trash/Piss Police, it's going to stay the same way for a long time.
Makes you wonder why people would even want to come to New York right? EXACTLY. Why would people waste their lovingly earned moolah to go to a city infamous for its crime and its grime. After all, there are a lot nicer places to visit in the U.S., e.g. the Bay Area, Maine, Florida, etc, etc, blah blah...
you wanna know why people still want to come here? BECAUSE THIS IS THE FUCKING CENTER OF THE WORLD, that's why.
And I say that with the utmost confidence and assurance that I am right. And it's not just because I live here.
...Ya see that Lady with the Torch on that island? She's fucking sayin' "COME ON IN." Doesn't matter if you're a dotbomb multimillionaire or an immigrant with barely functional knowledge of English, if you've got what it takes to be a New Yorker, then that's what you are. And being a New Yorker means loving this city with the unabashed, undiscriminating acceptance that it has accepted you.
And anyone who thinks that New York is the Pissbucket of the World is a *#^%...
Dateline: Times Square Internet Cafe
The only luxury I allow myself nowadays is eaing out for Cuban food.
I did before I headed outta Jersey last nite...
Heheh. I decided to share.. :-)
JPennant: had some cuban before I got here.
NewYorkSun: im green!
NewYorkSun: what restaurant?
JPennant: hard grove
NewYorkSun: where at?
JPennant: corner of Newark and Grove Streets in JC, NJ
JPennant: EZ to get to. Grab the 33rd St PATH and get out at the Grove Street station. Hang a left off the escalators and its right across the street. Cant miss.
NewYorkSun: need to try some some time soon
JPennant: well, to make ya drool
JPennant: Heheh. I had
JPennant: Garlic Chicken (baked, seasoned, fresh buttery garlic on top)
JPennant: Yellow Rice
JPennant: Red Beans to put on top of said rice
JPennant: (the read beans stew there is intense)
JPennant: and the portions are large :-)
JPennant: w/cafe un leche
NewYorkSun: man, i haven't gone out to eat at a good place for awhile
JPennant: oh, and sweet plantains, hadda have that.. :-)
NewYorkSun: cubans make cheesecake?
JPennant: these do :-)
JPennant: I splurgesed :-)
NewYorkSun: im jealous
JPennant: Heheh. life aint ALL bad on this side o the river :-)
mars: so what happened to the old business plan?
JPennant: hasnt gone away
mars: oh. okay. cool =) hehe
JPennant: just 're-prioritized'
JPennant: lack of cash makes ya focus on what can be done
mars: yar, i definitely know that
JPennant: the other day, I was two numbers and the rest all over from winning 115 million :-)
mars: wish they had a lotto here.
JPennant: eh, its a stupidity tax
JPennant: anyways, I got two numbers and the rest were all one number UNDER the actual numbers.
JPennant: before I checked the numbers, I was almost sure I won SOMETHING
mars: poor joe..maybe next time?
JPennant: nah, It wouldve been nice is all. :-)
mars: so even with the 2 you didn't get anything?
JPennant: Nah, its gotta be three and above
JPennant:I found myself worrying that I would lose all that Ive gained in this experience if I got money before it was time.
JPennant: God has a sense of humor
JPennant: scared me a bit there. :-)
mars: sure does
mars: funny. most people would've been almost giddy. not scared
JPennant: Hey, Ive fought long and hard to be where I am now
JPennant: if I had money, I would surely abandon my dreams for the 'easy life'
mars: and you wouldn't like an easy way out?
JPennant: sure I would
JPennant: thats whats scary
mars: you are a courageous soldier ;p
JPennant: nahhh, has nuttin to do wit courage
JPennant: Its just too damned easy to get distracted from yer dreams.
mars: very true
JPennant: Ive given up a lot for this. so, I gotta fight for the path Ive chosen, even tho the poverty suzx
mars: keep on fightin joe...wish i could help a little
JPennant: heh. buy a t-shirt and model it for me. :-) I want to put up pictures of my web friends wearing them ..
mars: that would be cute
mars: haha ok...when a get a little more funds. defintiely
JPennant: much appreciated hon. :-)
JPennant: I would prolly crop the heads So that its just the body and the shirts or bags or hats
mars: haaha headless models
JPennant: hee hee. :-)