I meant what I said...
... more than a year ago.
"Please re-arrange this plate so that someone in the advanced stages of malnutrition will take a passing interest in it."
Do you remembah, when it was *mumble* in Septembah..
My cousin Betty's was a couple of days ago.
Then Anne, my second oldest sister's is the day after.
Then the day after that was my father's.
Today is Sonya's, the third oldest sister.
I stopped counting how old my relatives are now.
Whats the point?
Jeez, growing up around a bunch of Librans, my god - the horreur.
Love 'em, but I leave those debate-hungry idjits alone generally.
Heh. Lil Bro could say the same thing about his Virgo siblings. Love us, but man we can work a nerve.
*pshaah* He's a Sag. Look who's talkin'. :-)
My picks from 2000 to August 2001 are attached. I couldn't resist adding commentary, heh!
Apropos of Nothing entries
When youre young, obituaries are an abstract with little relevance.
As a rule, no - I dont read the obituaries. But flipping through the LA Times, it suddently JUMPS in your face without warning, telling me all about the recent celebrities who Died Young and Unexpected like.
So, the title of this piece is:
When I became Aware of Mortality
Ez. When people who are exactly your age die of natural causes.
Older than you, sure - thats to be expected, younger than you- ah, tragic.. but you pay rapt ATTENTION when they are within your birth group.
At 36 I read a NY Post entry of this big lug of 36 years-old dying while wrapping Christmas presents for his nephews and nieces.
I paid close attention to all the details, cuz, I realized, it could have been me. Take away the Italian-American heritage, and make him Jamaican.. it WAS me.
Now, Im reading of and looking at pictures of stunningly young people dying. 37/38. My age.
Ive been lucky. Ive not had to attend the funerals of close family and friends.
But both my parents have had strokes. My mom has lost her sister to breast cancer. My fathers famously long-lived siblings are being thinned out.
And my ticker is acting up.
I dont feel old. Just aware.
And I now, on occasion, stop and skim the obituaries.
Driving back, full on Thai food
"You know, we are gonna look back on this as a vacation. No bills, well fed, free to be."
"Yeah buddy, I agree with you. But I dont wanna do this forever."
Ive stayed with friends, done a few overnights - and every time Ive had the urgent urge to flee.
I thank my hosts and go back to camping out.
I like waking up under the stars so much that when someone suggested I go up to Northern California and camp out, the idea actually appeals to me, a man who used to look at a sleeping bag roll with distrust.
Now, I feel stifled staying under someone else's roof, however benign or pretty my hosts.
I seriously intend to do some camping out in my travels.
Still, its no life to live long term.
It will end soon.
When the grandmotherly lady told me the tales of her life, the thing that raised the hairs was not the tales of drug use, prostitution, degradation.
What scared me the most was her assertion of being homeless for 2 and a half years.
"The object of the exercise was to go through this to get SO sick of it that I will avoid this condition like the plague."
"Are you sick of it, yet?"
"*sigh* If Im being honest with myself, no. No, not yet, not totally."
Ive definitely changed in these last few months. Im tougher of mind. More decisive. My mind and eyes have been opened by the people Ive met and encountered. Ive got stories to tell.
But, the hard road has gotten old.
Trite to you.
To a provincial, it's an awesome image.
Especially the light that looks like it is topping the tree.
Nice composition. Betcha went all over to find the right
Rather fonda this one.
Alrite, cars don't do it for me, but this...
I likes it.
This one makes the viewer wonder wtf is going on here.
I like that in a photo.
I have always loved these shots, they stand alone but
there is something about the colour temperature that is so fetching.
The trees look like they are painting the sky.
Evocative. I like that in a photo.
OMG! Amazing! You hafto keep the colour on this un, tho..