spiritual

spiritual, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Too true

Yellow bullet

Yellow bullet, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Its inevitable

I'd better accept it, change is gonna happen.

Although I know it's gonna happen, I havent really accepted it because I still dont know the how's of the deal. Where do I put my stuff, what do I keep, what do I get rid of.

*sigh*

Had a dream this morning. Id moved in with some generic young thing. Shit, I have enough issues and neuroses with someone staying the weekend, I cant even think about cohabitating. Much drama in that dream and unfortunately, I have feeling it'll be another reality to deal with sooner than later.

I like change, I just hate the process and uncertainties.

Yeah, yeah - that's part of the fun.

San Francisco's City Hall

San Francisco's City Hall, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Just about the prettiest government building Ive ever seen

In case of earthquake, hit this button

In case of earthquake, hit this button, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Saw this on an elevator. I asked the doorman what did it do. He sardonically replied: "Very little." :)

Face in the crowd

Face in the crowd, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

cops on parade

cops on parade, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Today's horrorscope sez:

Stop worrying about trying to fix something that's just not fixable. But be assured that everything will work out for the best in the long run. If you've been going through an inner transformation, this is all just part of the process.

Whoo. I know. Tomorrow's another day.
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On a side note:

Ive realized without home access, surfing the Internet is incredibly boring, Im finding. Apart from mail and pics - its a thorough time waster. Really.

I think 2 hours a day is enough. With a day off or two.

Interestingly, Ive found my computers are rarely used doorstops without access. Good for games and picture editing mostly.

I wonder what todays world would be like if the Internet shut down for a week?

Prep

Prep, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Looks to be a salmon dish topped by a poached quails egg.

I doubt it's a 10 dollar dish.

flag bearer

flag bearer, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

parade route

parade route, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Chinese New Year Parade

young spectator

young spectator, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Cheer

Cheer, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

Flower from my mom's casket

Flower from my mom's casket, originally uploaded by Itinerant.

It was a stormy and dreary night

The forecast called for storm conditions, heavy wind, blinding rain. And as usual for San Francisco's Chinese New Year parade, the rain pretty much held up during the parade and the heavy winds and rain came after it was done. Must be the incense and firecrackers.

I had misgivings shooting this years parade, because of the storm and a fear that - because of the challenging photographic conditions - that my camera wouldnt be able to handle it. Turned out my fears were overblown. The rain wasnt bad, the parade went off without a hitch and the camera came through like a champ in the dark and rain.

I've come to look forward to shooting this parade even with the challenges and the physiciality of it. Im truly happy when I do, almost as if Im riding a natural high.
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Every year I shoot the parade, I get frustrated. The cameras are never able to handle it, and every year I base my camera purchases on what happened during this parade. They have to be able to handle everything from changing light - from TV lights to utter darkness, shooting scenes to people and to be able to handle the inevitable rain and take over a thousand images without complaing.

And this year - the Fuji s5 came through like a champ. THIS is what I bought the camera for. :)

I was afraid that I would inevitably be feening for a better camera and be frustrated, but no - apart from a few blown out images (which were my fault), the camera came through. That put a smile on my face.

Of course, I will be buying other photographic gear this year - but I currently have what I need, I wont have to go buy something else based on fears of inadequacy.

This is a good thing.
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After the parade, feeling good, sore as usual (but a good sore), I felt as if a major thing was crossed off my list. Whatever Ive been waiting on has been crossed off my list, and Im now ready to deal with the Next Thing, whatever that is.

It is a weird feeling, this certainty, but since I dont have the benefit of accurate foresight, I've learned to just go with it. The feeling usually turns out to bs right in the end.

I couldve made it easier by getting work to pay the bills, but I simply wouldnt. I was afraid I had slipped into depression, but I just knew I had to wait it through. Not fun, but I trust my instincts, even while I think Im indulging in lunacy, frankly.

But no, I feel as if - come what may, it's going to be better. Much better.

I have nothing to base that on, but there it is.