Thursday, May 01, 2008

Fame or Fortune. Pick one.

I am trying to avoid the trap of being starry-eyed and fatally optimistic in this town - but damn, Im having a really good feeling about being here. Like this is where I make my stamp and fortune.

Of course, today's horrorscope aint helping any:

Something you have been striving towards for a long time, maybe even for years, is now within your grasp. This is no time for hesitation or timidity. Reach out and take it.

You have everything to look forward to and nothing to fear. Yes, it's really that good. Today's aspects also suggest you are about to receive some kind of reward for efforts you made in the past that went above and beyond the call of duty.

Yeah, I have practical housing and cashflow concerns, but so far - I cant shake the feeling.

In retrospect, Im starting to realize that it was very likely a good thing I was delayed in coming down here.Transitions needed to be made, ends tied up and a little more seasoning was needed. Who knows, but Im surprised as anyone, hell more surprised than anyone that it feels good being here. I think folk are more worried about me than I probably should be.

To maintain myself, I think I have to be true - literally - to myself, and not fall into the trap of exaggerating my circumstances. Gotta stay honest and straightforward. Seems to be working so far, but I can see how one can easily backslide into lying out here, where illusion is many people's stock in trade.

I think also, that if I try to make it into being about the money is another trap I should avoid. If I do things right, the money should come, but no focusing on the money.

On the set of "Criminal Minds" (there I go already), I was talking to the stand-in for an actor on the show. He himself is a transplant from Sacramento and he related advice given to him when he first got here:

"In LA, you gotta decide which it is you want - fame or fortune. Pick one, and dont fool yourself that you can get both, otherwise youre better off pursuing your passions from where you came."

I can see that. I'd rather fortune, although a tiny bit of recognition would be nice too.

Just trying to keep myself grounded, because optimism can indeed be fatal. Especially here.

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