Its not just talk

The chica sez I let her love me in spite of this or that.

No, not really.

It doesnt hurt to love her.

A long time ago, I decided I would rather not have love than to have to hold back my feelings.

It physically hurts too much.

I appreciate her deep affection, and her insistence I dont hold anything back myself.

I dont have to hold back.

I truly appreciate having someone be affectionate because they want to. Been without that for so long, even when there was someone there - that now, even though she's got depths Ive not yet begun to understand..


I appreciate it.

I truly do.

And thats why I talk about her.