Saturday, February 07, 2004

Liking companionship, desiring solitude, dealing with the high cost of cake.

Today's horrorscope
There are times when you want nothing more than to be left alone with your thoughts, and this is one of them. Don't worry that family and friends think you are being antisocial if you don't make an effort to talk to them - if they don't know your ways by now, they never will.

Be true to yourself - it's the most important thing you can do.

Big developments are afoot which is why you need to take them one step at a time.

You're better prepared than you know for what comes next.

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It used to be that being self-contained was enough.

I could deal with individuals and society at my leisure and pace, confident that I could always detach.

Then I realized belatedly that way of life was... inadequate.

Now, learning how to be sociable, while still being able to detach at will.

Hard to do in this town, Im finding.

Very hard to be social while keeping that sense of space.

Or, Im not used to it.

There is a Plains Indian prayer that goes along the lines of:
"Teach us to care, and not to care."

So, Im learning a new way to be.

Sorta like getting the cake you want, but having to learn how to eat it.


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