Sensitiv loner

As my friends in real life know.. I am quite anti-social by nature.
I tend to refuse dinner invites, think of many reasons not to show up for appointments and be habitually late for the ones Im supposed to show up for.
Right now, Im feeling quite antisocial. More so than usual.

JPennant: Heh. Like right now Im trying to counter my instinctive anti-social tendencies
gabz: :-D
JPennant: I was gonna cancel going to NY altogether because of tha
JPennant: cause the really, main reason Im going to NY is to see Kate and T****
JPennant: Kate, just see Kate before I head out west
JPennant: and T**** , cuz I promised to snazz up the machine I sold her before I headed west.
JPennant: otherwise there is no pressing reason for me to be there.
gabz: :-)
gabz: not so bad
gabz: yeah....sometimes it's just good to stick to those close to the heart, you know?
gabz: i'm very much like that
JPennant: Well, the reason I was feeling antisocial
JPennant: was one friend was finding all sorts of reasons NOT to meet up
JPennant: and it hurt
gabz: hrm
gabz: ******?
JPennant: ****? Noooo, not her. Not her style
gabz: well, that's good.
JPennant: It was an old friend from awhile back. All sorts of excuses.
JPennant: and then there was *snipped*
gabz: ah
JPennant: oh lord, the ever-loving drama. Like I was stalking people.
gabz: boo
JPennant: not that everyone was like that. Just a few.
JPennant: but the ones I got hurt
gabz: i'm sorry
JPennant: eh, its ok
JPennant: just a reminder that these are folk I dont really know all that well
gabz: yeah
JPennant: on the flip side of that
JPennant: some folk , who really, dont know me that well.. have opened up to me generously
JPennant: so, Im grateful for that.. thatas why Im trying to counter the anti-social reaction
gabz: :-)
gabz: you're being strong
JPennant: maybe Im just trying to be more reasonable

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but then again

k a t e: howdy howdy
JPennant: aloha hon
k a t e: wassuup
JPennant: nuttin
JPennant: just wondering if I HAVE to come to NY
k a t e: why would you have to?
JPennant: If it werent for you and t*****, I doubt I would
k a t e: well, i am going to be travelling alot after next week
k a t e: so, i can prob meet you out by wherever you are
k a t e: t'is up to you
JPennant: yar
k a t e: :-D
k a t e: but, when you come up to NY
k a t e: i would love to see ya!
JPennant: :-)

Heh. So Im headed for NY.